it was a period of crying few days back
my ah ma had 4th stage cancer
this is super sudden
i cried the moment i knew about it
who wouldnt
especially when she brought me up from young
i had to cry behind doors
for fear that my parents see me
mum is more sad compard to me
she shed tears
but i withheld
if not who is going to support her
i pray to GOD to not take grandma away so soon
let her enjoy life for a few more years
i pray to GOD to let her be happy each and every day
let her smile and leave the world if she had to
the moment i pray i end up crying harder
i dunno why
i should calm down when i prayed
that was what yx said
but the exact opposite happen to me
it doesnt matter anymore now
i pray everyday that she will be happy and that pain wont find her
i have learnt to be a stronger girl
where there is life there is hope
i must be hopeful everyday with grandma's condition
i have to be strong to dry the tears on mummy's face
KAHHWEE IS OKAY NOW^^


sometimes i wonder why is life so scary.at the moment when you are supposed to enjoy life, something struck you.why is life so full of shocks.now i just hope that everything is fine and i believe in miracles i really do.i will continue to pray for her each and everyday in my heart till the day i cant anymore.i have learnt to accept life a bit better than last time.thanks friends.thanks for all the support during this dull period of my life.although you all never really knew how i felt and how much i have suffered internally, the love that you all show me, the smses that i received is more than enough to show that you all are there for me.i really need those.without you people, i may just collapsed.